What if I have messed up too many times?

So really quick because I have to go get ready for church I just wanted to share a passage of Scripture I read for my early morning devotions that really encouraged me!

Sometimes it is hard, especially if we have made a lot of mistakes in our past, to think that God would still love us. Would still save us. Yet, this is what HE has to say about it in His Word:

"At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. (pretty much sums what we are as human beings!)
But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared,  he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy.
He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit,  whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior,  so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life. "
Titus 3:3-7

What a glorious reminder! It is not works that we have done! We can never be good enough to be saved or be bad enough to not be saved! IT IS THROUGH JESUS CHRIST and BECAUSE OF HIS MERCY HE SAVED US!

What an awesome God we serve! :)

That brought a smile to my face this morning and I hope to yours too :)

Blessings!

O Victory in Jesus!

An Excerpt from my prayer journal dated Monday, September 26, 2011:

"Yesterday in church Pastor was in part seven of his series on no limits. One thing I have been learning about lately is taking control of my thoughts. It seemed impossible but then he was talking about how we have guarenteed victory in You Lord!

'But thanks be to God!

 He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

  Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm.

 Let nothing move you.

 Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord,

 because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.'

-1 Corinthians 15:57-58

Wow! I (and every single child of God) have the victory in and through my Precious Savior Jesus Christ!!

The next point was how in our guarenteed victory we have absolutely incredible weapons:

'

'For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh:

 (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)

 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;'

-2 Corinthians 10:3-5

Casting down imaginations and bringing into captivity every thought to the obediance of Christ. That is what I really need to work on! The awesome thing though is that I can have the victory over these seemingly giants in my life because of Jesus christ and His power working in my! Thank You Jesus!

And to think-that I also have angels to help me as well according to this verse:

 'The angel of the LORD encamps all around those who fear Him,
And delivers them. 
Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
  Oh, fear the LORD, you His saints!
There is no want to those who fear Him.
¹ The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the LORD shall not lack any good thing.'

-Psalms 34:7-10

Wow! Wow! Wow! Oh my Jesus! Thank You! Now Lord, help me today to live this out. To take these precious promises and stand on them believing that You will bring them to pass. Help me Lord...

I have been allowing myself to listen to the enemies lies and live in defeat. Forgive me for that Lord and help me to move forward in victory from that lifestyle. Victory I can claim in and through You as YOUR child! Thank you Jesus!

In Your Name I pray,

Amen "

What is something in your life that you know that Jesus can give you victory in? Our God is so good and we do not have to live in defeat! We have the victory, the battle is already won, in and through Jesus!

So often we live in defeat though...

I needed this reminder and these precious promises today, Lord willing you did too :)

Have a blessed day!

Oh and on a side note:

I took this really neat picture of a Florida grasshopper (or are they locusts?) well, whatever they are they are big! Anyway I took this picture this morning and thought it was so cool!

Cute little guy huh? :) Have an amazing day! :) Keep your eyes on our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ :)



Before and After

So I have not updated in a bit. Obviously. Things have been a little bit crazy to say the least! And yet they are starting to become a lil bit more sane. If that makes any sense?

My amazing husband and I celebrated our four month anniversary. Four months? Only four? Honestly it has felt like a lifetime! In a good way :) Here are some of the things we have done in the last four months just since getting married:

• Got married
• Went to Canada for our honeymoon-now I am remembering some of the pictures we took and am digging around for them:

Oh yeah, and who can forget about the time I put dish soap in the dishwasher because I ran out of dishwasher power stuff. Ahem. I would never do something that would cause a small waterfall in our kitchen at our cottege. Nope. Not me.

•  Got home from our honeymoon and packed our life into Jason's lil Ford Taurus. By the time we I was done with it the poor car was on a scary upwards angle there was so much weight on the back! But with prayer we struck out.
• We stopped in Connecticut to meet/visit a blog friend that I have known for over two years. Rebecca and I had quickly become best friends and as close to sisters as you can get without actually being sisters! What a joy it was to finally meet her and Justin as well as her family! We had so much fun with them :) You can visit Rebecca's new blog Butterfly Days.

Jason loved playing with her younger siblings! :)

•  We went from Connecticut to North Carolina to visit some very close friends and what fun we had! Sun, Beach, friends that are like family-it was such a blessing from the Lord!

•  While in NC we learned something that was a complete and total surprise! Jason went out kyacking on the waves and I took some pregnancy tests. It was official-Jason was a Daddy! And I told him so:

 What a perfect day that was. We were thrilled beyond words! And so excited to see what God was going to do with our lil family!

•  After saying goodbye to our friends in NC we struck out for our new home in Florida. Summerfield. We had no idea what would await us there but we knew that the Lord had most definitely called us there. They had even supplied a house for us! What a blessing that was. Jason was going to be working with the youth and we were going to also help out in whatever way around the mission compound for Evangelical Bible Mission.
• We got to Summerfield and immediately began to work on it. Rooms like the living room went from this:

To this during renovation:






• It was during this renovation process of my entire house-

that I went to get my positive pregnancy test at a women's pregnancy center and we were overjoyed to find out that I was indeed pregnant although not even five weeks yet.

On the way home I began to have some problems and the next morning I woke up and knew that I had lost the baby. I was overwhelmed by the amazing support I received from women who had experianced the same thing and I started to gain new perspective as I read their stories and realized that I was not alone.

Honestly losing a little one was one of my greatest fears in life but one thing I have learned is that truly sometimes the Lord brings us face to face with some of our greatest fears just to show us that TRULY His grace is sufficient in our greatest times of need. I have a lil one waiting for me in Heaven and I can hardly wait for the day I get to meet that lil one face to face. Until then-he is in the arms of Jesus and what comfort comes from knowing that!

• Soon after I lost the baby my family and friends came up to surprise me from NY for my 21st birthday! What a fun time we had :) It was such a blessing to have them here and especially because I was still dealing with the loss of my baby I so appreciated them!
• Did I mention that I had also taken over a thrift store during this time? I was the official manager and Jason would help me. Whew what a lot of work that was!
• At the same time we were also ministering to those in the church as well in the community and for quite a while I had people in my house 24/7 which started to just drain me (with everything elso going on).
• One night I took a pregnancy test about a month after my miscarraige and was devastated when it was negative and once again I had to surrender it to the Lord. Well, another weekish went by and I was really starting to wonder so in the Walmart restroom while I was waiting for our car to get an oil change I took another test, walked away from it and surrendered me not being pregnant to the Lord, walked back and guess what?!?

The Lord had blessed us with another baby! What a surprise to me and what a precious gift from God! At nine weeks we got to go and get an ultrasound. What a blessing that was! To see our lil bean moving and wiggling was such a relief! It was amazing we even got to see its lil heart beating. At NINE weeks! Here is our lil bean:

• Now that we knew we were pregnant again things continued to become a little more solid. Meaning my house began to be more finished-

Things were beginning to turn around and yet in my heart I was still really struggling. I have it all! A house, a wonderful husband, amazing friends and family who are so supportive and something was still missing!

Someone once commented on how it was not a good thing I was depressed already (just being married) and I am sure some wondered what it was.

It was not my husband . He is the best thing besides Jesus Christ that has ever happened to me and truly is my prince. He exhibits what real love is every single day and is so patient and so loving with me. He puts Christ first and foremost in his life and you can tell!

It was not losing my child. Although that was so difficult I know that my baby is in heaven and God gives healing.

It was not________________________________ whatever fill in the blank.

So many women all over the world deal with so many things that are far greater than I could ever imagine and yet-they are at peace.

Why?

How!?


Do not be anxious about anything,
 but in every situation,
 by prayer and petition,
 with thanksgiving,
 present your requests to God.
And the peace of God,
which transcends all understanding,
 will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7


Present your requests to God.




Sounds easy right?


Sounds like it should be the first thing you should do anyway right?


Well, to my shame, I didn't.


I kind of forgot about my Jesus.


I mean of course I knew that He was there like always but I did not act like it. I tried to be the "perfect wife" on my own (and failed miserably). I tried to fix my problems on my own. I tried to deal with my sin that I was really struggling with on my own (anger, unforgiveness, bitterness, pride).


Notice a common theme there?


I.


Wow. So easy it is to get so consumed with ourselves. And how much easier it is to get our eyes off of the very One they are supposed to stay focused on-our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.


Today I had that priviledge to go to a conference that was being streamed live. Wow did the Lord use it to convict me. Convict me of what though?


Trying to live life while attempting to fit Jesus in when it was convenient for me instead of living my life in such a way that my all was built around HIM.


Then-they sung this song and oh, how did it touch me! To think that my Jesus paid it all!


All for me!


All for you!


So then I had to seriously ask myself why on earth have I been living like I have to pay it all. Why have I been trying to buy approval from my friends, family, my precious husband and my Savior when He already had paid it all!?


My debt is gone.


I am set free!


What glorious freedom! And how that makes me want to change how I have been living! I no longer want to live for me. I want to live for my Jesus. I want 150% surrender!!!!! He paid it all!!!! It just makes me want to live for HIM!


So what about you?


Where are you today?


What has Jesus been whispering in your ear?


Will you stop and listen?


I am posting the song "Jesus Paid it ALL" and I really want you to take time to listen and pray through it. He paid it ALL for you! What an amazing Savior we have!




And I know He watches me...

We sang this song

in church today and I 

was absolutely amazed at 

the timing the 

Lord has.

So I decided to share 

it with you all.

His Eye Is On The Sparrow.

Civilla D. Martin

Why should I feel discouraged,

Why should the shadows come,

Why should my heart feel lonely

And long for Heav'n and home,

When Jesus is my portion?

A constant Friend is He:

His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches over me;

His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches me.

I sing because I'm happy,

I sing because I'm free,

His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches me

His eye is on the sparrow

And I know he watches me.

"Let not your heart be troubled,"

His tender word I hear,

And resting on His goodness,

I lose my doubts and fears;

Though by the path He leadeth

But one step I may see:

His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches me;

His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches me.

Whenever I am tempted,

Whenever clouds arise,

When songs give place to sighing,

When hope within me dies,

I draw the closer to Him,

From care He sets me free:

His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He cares for me;

His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He cares for me.

(Source)

Honestly, these last few 

months have been 

a huge struggle for me

in every way.

Do you ever feel like

your life is just

filled with darkness?

Like no matter where you go

or what/who you turn

to there is never relief?

And here is where

it gets personal.

For the last three months

it seems as though I have been

descending deeper and deeper

into an abyss of my

own making.

Why?

Well, because God was no longer

a priority in my life.

But I was doing ministy!

Well, sometimes it is possible

to get so caught up

in ministry and

the busyness of it that

we forget WHO

we are ministering FOR

in the first place.

Being back in NY has

really opened my

eyes to how deep

I have allowed certain

destructive thought patterns and

attitudes to take root

in my heart and

had started to take over my life.

Anger.

Bitterness.

Unforgiveness.

Jealousy.

Discontentment.

To name a few.

For days I have struggled.

How do I forgive?

How do I stop being so awful?

How do I begin to

LIVE again?

I.

I.

I.

I can not do it.

I can not change myself.

I can not start to live again.

I can not be good enough.

I just can't!

So Who can?

May I insert a duh here?

Who is my Heavenly Father?

Who is my refuge and strength?

Who is the Creator of the Universe?

Who was I kidding that

I could take

care of everything

on my own?

He watches over

sparrows!

How much more is 

He going to look

after His children?

The ones He sent His Son

to die on the cross for?

What love!

What mercy! 

What grace!

I have been running from

the very One

,the ONLY One,

Who can help me! 

But no more.

I want Jesus.

I want to know Him

in a way I never have!

What a comfort

to know that 

that my Savior is

watching me.

What joy there is 

in that truth!

Have you been running from

Him instead of 

towards Him?

Lets stop doing that and

turn to Him in total

and complete surrender!

What joy there is

in doing so

and truly

there is freedom in Him.

(Source)

The spirit of fear becomes faith!

These past few weeks

have been quite the journey.

Never have I battled

so much spiritually.

Never have I known

 the Lord to be

so mighty!

He is so good!

Here is something 

I wanted to share 

with you all.

It is a verse that

the Lord gave me 

many months ago when

I was really

struggling with fear

and then just has

been impressing on me

over the past few weeks

and I just feel led

to share it with

all of you

as well as what I had

journaled about it:

"Because He is at my

right hand

I SHALL NOT BE MOVED.

Therefore, my heart is

glad, and my glory

rejoices;

MY FLESH WILL ALSO
REST IN HOPE."

-Psalm 16:7-9

I love how it talks about the fact that 

He is at my right hand.

Right next to me!

With HIM beside me it says,

not that I possibly will not be moved,

but I SHALL NOT be moved.

Even when my world seems to be

falling apart,

I CAN HAVE CONFIDENCE

that He is with me and I can REJOICE in that!

I can also rest in the HOPE that knowing He is with me

will get me through these battles and spiritual attacks.

He can help me OVERCOME MY FEARS

about my future.

My HOPE for my future is 

FOUND IN MY SAVIOR.

My flesh (I will

insert FEARS about facing the future

and being here in Summerfield

and my marriage

and about wanting a baby

and not sure if I will ever get pregnant again)

WILL REST IN HOPE!!!
I had not realized
that I had been allowing
the enemy access
to me
in different ways
but the biggest one was
through the spirit of fear.
I have always struggled with
fear and worrying but
the past few weeks 
I felt as though
I was being bombarded
constantly with lies
and instead of 
casting out every imagination
and filling my mind
with the Word of God-
I listened to those lies
and it started to effect 
every area of my life.
This past week a 
dear friend came over
and brought to our
attention that, while
spirits can never possess
a child of the 
Most High God, 
they can taunt them
and if we allow ourselves to listen to them 
we can get to the point
where we are so focused 
on ourselves and our problems
that we are not focused
on our Savior any
longer and suddenly
we can not do 
what HE wants us to do.
So we cast out the spirit 
of fear and I really started
claiming promises
from scripture and saying 
truth out loud. 
This past week
we also had some major spiritual
battles and it was so awesome
to see God work!
This area that we are living
in is so full of spiritual 
darkness but our 
GOD IS BIGGER
THAN THAT DARKNESS
and so we have started 
praying over and re-claiming
this ground for our Lord
and Savior Jesus Christ.
Think that praying for
and entire community to be saved
is too big a thing
for God to do?
After the amazing ways I 
have seen God work this week
I truly do not believe that at all!
I believe
that God is going to 
do some great things!
Things beyond what we could
ever think or imagine!
I believe that we
as believers need to 
rise up 
and realize that there
is a battle out there
to be fought 
BUT
oh the glorious truth-
through Jesus Christ
the battle is already won!!!
What a glorious truth
but how often do we
live in that truth?!
I want to start
living and believing
for my Lord and Savior
to do amazing things
things beyond what I ever thought
He would/could.
I have been limiting God!
I am so ashamed to say it
but for months I have been living 
in fear and instead
of running and taking refuge
in my Savior KNOWING He 
would take care of me-
I have been listening to the enemies
lies and trying to fix things on my own.
How foolish!
But oh we serve
a merciful heavenly Father!
I truly feel as though
this week has been a new 
beginning in so many ways
and OH I CAN NOT WAIT
to see what happens next!!!

The Lord speaks!

So yesterday

I was weary.

And this morning.

I was weary.

But I opened my Bible

and not once,

but twice,

the Lord reminded me

of something:

"Why art thou cast down, O my soul?

and why art thou disquieted in me?

 hope thou in God:

 for I shall yet praise him

 for the help of his countenance."

-Psalm 42:5

And then-

as if one time was not enough-

a few verses down

I read this:

"Why art thou cast down, O my soul?

and why art thou disquieted within me?

 hope thou in God:

 for I shall yet praise him,

 who is the health of my countenance,

and my God."

-Psalm 42:11

What an amazing God we serve!

So today.

I am hoping in my Savior.

What comfort that brings! :)

What are you hoping in today?



Our Story-Part 2: Our Friendship-May 2010

So I know that I have kind of left you all hanging from
PART 1 (click to re-read)

for a few weeks.

Sorry about that-things have been insane.

But I have decided to just start typing

and bit by bit hopefully I will get this next part of 

our story written up :)

So where were we?

Well, I had just met Jason and was determined to be single.

Ahem.

So, I thought that I would not be seeing a lot of him.

I mean after all I just saw him once at this 

Bible study.

Right?

Ahem.

Wrong.

All the sudden I found myself bumping into Jason EVERYWHERE!

It started when I went to a girls Bible study with my 

sister Jen that was ironically being held at his house (hosted by his sister Sarah).

That night the Lord really spoke to me once again about worry

and all the sudden Jason pulled into the driveway.

Now, I imagined he would just go into the house 

and not give any of us girls on the porch a second glance.

Well, I was wrong.

Oddly enough he came out and hung out with us the entire night.

We talked and laughed together then the real fun began
when we got out glow sticks.
Did you know that if you break open glow sticks
and spray the insides around they look like stars?
They are amazing and so much fun
(plus they do not stain clothing and according to the label
are "non-toxic").
So accidentally I managed to get a glob in Jason's eye.
Well.
He complained about it and I just kind of laughed at him
and then he got some in my eye.
YOW!
I went into the house and washed my eye out.
Sarah went in with me
and I distinctly remember looking in the
mirror and going
"Whoa! Good thing there aren't any cute guys here to impress!"
Ahem.
Apparently I freaked Sarah out
who unbeknownst to me had been
praying that Jason and I would end up together
since the day we had met!
Either way we left that night
and I was still thinking:
Super nice guy.
No way in a million years he would notice me.
End of story.
*cough*
Or so I thought.
God had different plans!
So I continued to live my life.
May, 2010
His sister Sarah and I started to develop a relationship
and little by little he began to show up more and more.
Like the time he texted me on her phone.
I thought it was her.
Nope.
It was him.
Then the time she texted me off HIS phone.
I didn't know that so I texted back
and we started to gradually text
more and more.
May 2, 2010 I wrote this in my prayer journal:
"Jason actually was texting me today and...oh Lord! I just need You
to help me keep my eyes on YOU! I could really...really fall for this guy but I DO NOT want
to, first of all, dishonor You by not being COMPLETELY focused
on You and second, as much as I would LOVE to have him notice me...
I know that that would not make everything perfect.
Only YOU can do that Lord. Plus-I am so afraid
that I could get hurt again like I did with _________
and ...I just don't know if I could do that Lord."
Course the next night we texted till 12:30am.
I still was absolutely terrified though
so I just kind of wrote it off.
May 6,2010:
I go with some people from Jason's Bible study to a Planned Parenthood to pass out
tracts and pray in front of.
Sarah and I end up walking the streets and passing out tracts and praying.
Then someone joined us.
"Most of the evening Sarah, Jason and I were together walking. At first it had been just Sarah and I
but then Jason came along as a protector of sorts.
Lord, it was so much fun! I have not had that much fun in a very very long time. The best part about it was that I was JUST ME! We walked, talked, handed out tracts and laughed. Then after we were done  we went to a burger king and ate really fast before we went back to the ________'s house. That was another thing too Lord-I ATE IN FRONT OF JASON
(this was a huge milestone because before with my ex-bf I would be so nervous when he came to visit I would not eat. Literally I would lose 3-5 pounds every single time he came to visit.)! Tonight...was just freeing. Lord, I really...I am not looking for a relationship right now. Please just help me to guard my heart Father. I surrender my friendship with Jason to You Lord."
See a pattern developing yet?
I really was in denial!
So I continued to deny what I thought the Lord might
possibly be doing and continued battling loneliness, surrendering my future (and Jason)
to the Lord and praying for my future husband
"Lord-whoever he is".
He continued to text me randomly over the next few weeks.
And then it happened.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
We were texting and all the sudden
out of the blue
he asked me if I wanted a job.
"Jason and I are going into business together.
See, he is a juggler and he wants to get more jobs but he
needs someone to do the marketing for him so that is 
were I come in.
He is going to pay me $10 an hour. I am excited
because I think that we could really get a lot of jobs working
together (yeah right that is not the only reason I was
excited-just didn't want to admit it lol). 
Please Lord...I do not want to lose my heart to this guy....
Lord, I just want to focus on You...single or not,
I am Yours. I say these things because I know I could start to have feelings for Jason especially because we are working in such close 
proximity to each other. So, once again, I surrender not only my singleness to You but I also lay down my dreams, desires, fears and feeling for Jason as anything more than a brother
at Your feet. Please take it all Lord and may You be honored and glorified in 
whatever happens."
I am amazed at how much I was falling in love with Jesus
during this time.
I was so afraid of making the same old mistake of allowing
desperation to lead my heart once again that I kept praying that the Lord
would take the feelings for Jason away.
  The uncertainty was good for me because countless times
a day when uncertainty and loneliness would
consume me it drove me straight to my Savior.
And what comfort I found in Him!
The day that Jason asked me to be his manager
he asked me to go yard saling with his family
the next Saturday "to talk about the business".
Uh huh.
We didn't get much talking done
at least about the juggling jobs but oh
we had so much fun just getting to know each other! :)
I was definitely in denial!
I knew I liked him but
I was not going to get hurt again!
Therefore I was not going to feel again!
Nope.
Nuh uh.
Not me!
Sigh.
It wasn't working that well.
May 25, 2010:
Jason and some other young people come over after church.
We go on our first of many night walks over the summer.
Jason and I somehow end up behind everyone talking.
For hours.
That night I write in my journal:
"Lord, I just surrender this to You again.
I really am starting to get interested in Jason. I don't 
really know him all that well yet but everytime I spend time with him I see something in him that I like a little bit more.
He definitely seems interested in me as well. 
Lord, I just pray that we would keep our eyes focused on You...Lord, You know what the desire of my heart is! Please whatever happens-whether I am single for the rest of my life or not-please help me to surrender and to bring honor and glory to You. I just want to serve You Jesus and I know I can do that and be perfectly content without a guy in my life."
So I kept surrendering.
And surrendering.
Through the making a website for Jason the Juggler.
Through making phone calls for Jason the Juggler.
Through writing emails for Jason the Juggler.
Through designing a website for Jason the Juggler.
Through looking at pictures of Jason the Juggler.

 Did I mention he is extremely strong?
Sigh.
May 31, 2010:
It had been a full weekend.
A graduation party where we learned old fashion dancing
(like the Virginia Reel and Pride and Prejudice type dances)
Jason had almost asked me to dance but I was dancing with someone
else.
Sunday Jason had come to our church and juggled for the kids there.
Afterwards he stayed at our house and we all went to chinese as a family then he helped
put up fence where we kept our horses.
After church he was practicing his juggling and teaching Jen a little
bit and I was just sitting there watching (and worrying a bit I'll admit it lol)

and then he started teaching me how to make balloons which was super fun!
Then a group of us decided to go to the park on a night walk.

It ended up being Jen and Jason and I.
How?
Not sure.
But it was a perfect night!
I ended out the month of May 2010 with this journal entry:
"I know that I am really starting to like this guy Lord...It has been two months and three days since we met Lord. Last night Jen asked him what his thoughts were on dating and he said that he doesn't date. I really think that we both really like each other BUT we are just getting to know each other.
These feelings are so different from anything I have ever felt before. Never have I ever even been interesting in a guy without having an obsession with him. Until the past few months desperation ruled my heart and controlled how I went after guys. It was so wrong Lord!
Now it it the opposite. From day one I have been surrendering my feelings for Jason to You. I really do not know that You have in store for Jason and I but I do know that no matter what happens YOU are the only one that will complete and satisfy me Lord.
No guy will ever do that.
So once again, Lord You know my heart and all my desires...please help me to continue to seek you first and to continue to just be friends with Jason. I surrender my feelings for him to You Lord, trusting that Your will WILL be done."
I was now facing another month.
I had no idea what was to come.
I didn't have any idea what the Lord was going to do.
But oh, He was about to do more that I could
have ever imagined.
But-you will just have to wait for that in
Part 3 :)
(hehehe)