Amazed.

I don't think that I will ever forget that day.

The day that I couldn't breath for over three hours.

I was looking at pictures on facebook tonight and just...

was amazed.

Amazed at how the Lord has grown me these past two years.

Amazed at the lessons I have learned.

Amazed at how amazing it is to fall in love with Jesus.

Amazed that the Lord truly does have reasons for when hard things happen in our lives.

Amazed that although Jesus never promised life would be easy-

He promised He would be with us every step of the way.

Amazed.

I am also amazed at how many times I doubt my God.

He has done so much for me.

He has proven His faithfulness to me time and time again.

He holds the universe in the palm of His hand.

When I think of how mighty He truly is-

I am amazed at how often I choose to try to handle my problems on my own.

I am amazed at how often I try to merely fit Him into my life instead of building my life around Him.

I am amazed at how often I put God in a box-

thinking that my problems are either too big, or too small, for Him

(THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE)

 to handle.

When I look at how sinful, rebellious, and wretched I am-

I am amazed that my Savior still chose to die in my place on that cross.

I am amazed that He loves me-in spite of me.

I am amazed.

So question:

What has amazed you lately?

PRAISE THE LORD!!

I have some VERY EXCITING NEWS!!! I ended up calling the doctor today to get the result from some tests I had done a few weeks ago and found out some answers:
1) I have MONO (and no I haven't been kissing anyone lol) which you really can't do much for just rest and lots of fluids. That explains why I have no energy and am so tired all the time!
2) My vitaman D levels are down. I am on 2000 iu's per day.
3) My B12 levels are also down so I am on 500 mg per day for that.

This may not seem like a big deal to know that I have mono and you may be wondering why I earth I am so excited I have it. THE REASON IS THAT AFTER A YEAR ALMOST OF NOT KNOWING AND GETTING NO ANSWERS WE KNOW WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON! We are not sure how long I have had the mono but I think has been about a month so hopefully it won't stay around too long. So with knowing all this and going to the chiropractor and getting my back and neck fixed I am OFFICIALLY on the mend. GOD IS SO GOOD!

HE IS SO SO SO GOOD!

So yeah, there is my big news for today :)

There is still a while to go until I am back to "normal" but wow just to know what steps to take...GOD IS GOOD. Things are looking up!

Blessings to you all :)

Ps: I have sneezed like over almost 20 times today how weird is that? Can you tell I am in a feisty (good word!) mood tonight (as the picture suggests).

ONCE AGAIN:

WE
SERVE
AN
AWESOME
GOD!

Have you thanked Him for the blessings in your life lately?

Today I was thinking about death...

As many of you know this past year has been a trying one for me especially physically.

Today however, I was thinking back and wanted to share a post that I wrote during the midst of that very uncertain time. It is dated March 23, 2009. Why do I want to re-visit that time? Only to bring honor and praise to my God for all that He did in and through that period in my life. Please do not think that this is to make people pity me or think whatever about me. THIS IS ONLY TO BRING HONOR TO MY GOD!

"So yesterday was definitely a one-of-a-kind day.

All four of us kids led worship for the Sunday School opening. Abby sang/spoke, Danny (yes my brother) played the guitar/sang, Jen played the guitar/sang and I played the piano/sang. It was SO AWESOME to do something like that with my siblings! God has really been doing a work in all of us!!! HE is so GOOD!

So everything was going pretty good until about 10 minutes before Dad finished the sermon. My right arm went completely numb and I lost all the strength in it. I sat there shaking it, trying to get some feeling back into it because I had to play the last hymn on the piano. Well. The numbness did not go away. In fact, I got up to the piano and not only was it numb but I could not even press down the piano keys because I had no strength in my fingers. That kind of freaked me out. I mean, I have had numbness for 4 months but NOTHING like that.

So I went home and tried to sleep. I felt very lethargic and just...exhausted...the problem was that the numbness/weakness spread from my right arm to my left. By the time I woke up my arms and legs were completely numb and I had no strength in them. They felt like dead weights on my body.

I tried not to be worried about it and just went on with my day. I watched a movie and then went downstairs, sat on the couch and had a wonderful in depth talk with Danny (which was SUCH a blessing in itself). Everyone else had gone to a birthday party so when they got home it was almost time for our evening service. Danny, Jen, and I wanted to lead the worship so we headed over to the office to get some songs together.

The whole time I was feeling stranger and stranger until finally (when I could barely get up from dad's chair) Dad sent me home.

I came in. Sat down on the couch. Started talking to mom. Then all the sudden I was having a very hard time breathing. It kept getting worse and worse until I was dragging air in and when I did it made this horrible rasping noise. I wasn't too worried about it at first (I figured it would just wear 0ff) and so I told Mom I would just rest, stay home from church and then I would be fine. All this started happening at about 5:20.

So, Mom left for church and I went upstairs and started to watch a movie but then went into Danny's room to keep him company. I was trying to instill words of sisterly wisdom but I was finding it harder and harder to get the words out plus the rasping was getting worse and worse.

We have an RN that attends our church but she normally doesn't come on Sunday nights. I remember wishing that she could come though just because it had been about an hour and I was starting to really not feel so good.

Well what would you know? As I was talking (well attempting to) to Danny Mom brought her up! She had come to church that night! Which was really a good thing because she took one look at me and after listening to me breath said that I needed to go right away to the city hospital (which is about and hour away from us).

Dad was still at church however, so they got me downstairs and on the couch where she monitered my breathing for the next hour. By this time I was so out of it and just unable to talk or really move. All I could do was focus on my breathing.

The awesome part was that I was so calm. God gave me that peace that passes understanding and I could just sense Him right there besides me. I just cannot explain what a comfort that was.

So finally the church service ended and Dad came over. A ton of people where there but I was kind of in this fog...I remember but I just could not...hard to explain. Anywho, so they got me in the van along with Mom, Dad, and Danny and we set off on our way with Grandpa Kelley following in his car.

As we pulled out of the driveway I saw all these people standing there watching us go and Mom was telling me: "The whole church is praying." It was such a comfort to know that...then I found out that the church where we go to youth group was praying as well, as well as tons of people on facebook. Let me tell you. Knowing that they were praying was something I clung to that ride to the hospital!

So, we finally got to the hospital. I was admitted into the Pediatrics ER.
After going through Triage (I think that is how you spell it...) They put me right into a room (I was surprised how fast I got in but not really because of all the prayers people where praying) and started hooking me up to all sorts of machines and monitors. Then they started me on a nebulizor (spelling again?) treatment which right away helped my throat not constrict so much. Slowly, my breathing started to get more regular and I was able to talk well for the 1st time in about 3 1/2 hours! Grandpa Kelley got me laughing by telling me that the reflections on the mask made me look like I had Bugs Bunny teeth! I was so happy He was there! I love my Grandpa...

So after the nebulizar (spelling again?) treatment was over they put me back on the oxygen. After the doctor examined me they sent me up to x-ray. When that was done it was back to the room once more to wait and see what was going on. The doctor came back and said that theyhad not been able to find anything wrong on the x-rays. Once again they were stumped and while they knew something was definately wrong-they had no idea what is was. The best thing they said to do was to get things figured out with my neurologist as soon as possible. That was definately a little bit disheartening. I was feeling a lot better then when I had come in but knowing that there is probably something serious wrong but no one knows what...that can get a little bit tough. The things is though that I knew (and know) that I had a choice to make. I could be bitter, worry, and second guess God OR I could continue to trust that HE knows what is best when it comes to me. After all He now only knows my life story-HE WROTE IT! Well suffice to say, I chose the latter: to trust my God and to completely rely on HIM for the outcome. On the way to the hospital I remember Danny reading me these verses:
"Truly my soul silently waits for God;
From Him comes my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my defense;
I shall not be greatly moved." (Psalm 62:1-2) As I was lying there waiting for the treatment I had gotten to wear off so I could go home the Lord brought back to my mind something that had happened in the car on my way to the hospital. I was looking out the window and it was as though the Lord just put this thought into my head as I was struggling to breath: "Jesus couldn't breath on the cross either." WHOA! Talk about putting things into perspective. As I sat there struggling to breath I was just overwhelmed with gratitude and appreciation for the fact the my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ had CHOSEN to not be able to breath FOR ME. He chose to die a cruel and excruciatingly painful death FOR ME. Why? Because He loved me...It was such an eye opener to me personally. It was as though the Lord showed me something so precious through not being able to breath! Who would have thought that possible!?!?"

Today
I was
thinking
about death.
Christ's death...
He DIED for me...why
oh why do I find it so
hard to live for Him? I
am going to be right up front
with you my dear readers-these past
few days have been a real struggle for
me to NOT compromise, to NOT waste my time,
to NOT allow the devil to discourage me, to NOT
overreact. Tonight all I could think about was the
fact that Christ paid the ULTIMATE price on that cross
for me! And I am just...living a mediocre life for Him...NO
MORE! I WANT TO LIVE FOR MY LORD NOT JUST 100 PECENT BUT 110
PERCENT! I want every single word, thought, action, EVERYTHING that
proceeds out of me to be FOR HIM, BECAUSE OF HIM, TO HONOR AND GLORIFY
HIM, TO POINT PEOPLE TO HIM! I want to share a quote with you from an amazing
book called "I would die for you" which tells the amazing story of BJ Higgins a boy that knew what it meant to live his life for Jesus Christ alone.

"What is of great concern to me: the inauthenticity of people in general...God is not religion, He is reality. God did not intend for us to be religious; He intended for us to follow Him...we should just try to get to know God, not just follow meaningless rules. We should also try to show others that God is far beyond these religious traditions and droning sermons. We should show them and b an example to them about how truly fulfilling, satisfying, amazing, and real God is when He is known and worshiped in true authenticity."

~BJ Higgins
~"What is of great concern to me"~School assignment~2005

As I read that quote it makes me start pondering what it meant to truly be an example to others around us. About what a true relationship with Jesus Christ should looks like. Then I start thinking about whether or not people would see an example of what a true relationship with Jesus Christ looks like if they looked at my own personal life. Then I start thinking about what my life should look like. That is when the conviction starts.

I desire more than anything else that when people would look at me ,whether they have known me 12 years or 12 minutes, and would see Jesus Christ shining out of me. I desire my life to be a living sacrifice for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service (He died for me the LEAST I can do is live for Him). And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God." (Romans 12:1-2)

So often we can grumble and complain about serving the Lord. So often we can have excuse after excuse about why we "can't" give our all to Him and yet-HE GAVE HIS ALL FOR US!

Here are some quotes I wanted to share with ya'll:

"Decide (choose) not to ride the fence,
dividing your intersts
between God and the things
of the world.
Decide (choose) that God will
OWN your heart.
Trust Him and be willing to admit
when you are
wrong."
(Unknown)

It all boils down to a choice! Daily choosing WHO WE ARE GOING TO LIVE FOR. Ourselves? Or Christ?

"The reason some of us
are such poor
specimens of Christianity
is because we have
no Almighty Christ.
We have Christian
attributes and experiences,
but there is no
ABANDONMENT
to Jesus Christ."
(Oswald Chambers)

Have you ever stopped to consider what a difference it would make if each and every child of God started living their lives in TOTAL ABANDONMENT to Jesus Christ? If instead of living our lives looking no different then the world around us we CHOSE to be different and to be LIVING SACRIFICES for our God? Have you ever thought about what would happen if the young generation (OUR generation) stood up for Christ and were not ashamed to live for Him alone?
I have been thinking about it a lot...I know that I want to be 110% surrendered to Christ but not only when I am with others, oh no, when I am at home with my family and when I am all by myself. Every single second of my day needs to be lived for Jesus Christ...to honor and glorify and lift up HIS precious name...

"As a Christian:
'Your life is hid
with Christ.
You are not your own.
You have no time of your own,
no money of your own.
CHRIST
MUST
BECOME
YOUR
COMPLETE
MASTER.'"
(Leonard Ravenhill)

So yeah. I would have to say that this afternoon was yet another turning point in my life. My deepest desire is to live and breathe my precious Lord and Savior Jesus Christ...to live 110% for Him...to be a living sacrifice for Him...to honor and glorify HIM every single second of the day whether I am in a crowd of 100 people or whether I am alone in my room...He is so precious to me it is time I start living like He is.

Sorry this is so long...but I really felt that the Lord wanted me to share this with you all. What are your thoughts on living a 110% Surrendered life for your God?

We serve an AWESOME God!

Hey all,
So I just got back from the neurologist. It was an interesting visit. We got there at 10am and hardly any time had passed before the doctor himself came and got us (they do not have nurses at the office the actual neurologists do it all which was kind of neat).
We went to the office and he asked me a ton of different questions and did a few tests. Then he hooked me up to a machine.
Now this machine was...a professional cattle prod LITERALLY! He needed to test my nerve reactions and some other thing like that so basically he zapped me (it was kinda like sticking your finger into an electric socket but not quite that bad. Anywho, by the 4th shock (he started on my left leg) I was in tears. It hurt SO BAD. I seriously would rather have had shots! It was funny because one time he zapped me and I almost came off the table (I think I startled him lol :-p) The nice part was that the more he did it the less it hurt so by the 15th time I had gotten used to it.
Once that was all done (he did it about 8 times total to my legs and my arms) we sat down and he said that he was going to run some tests to determine what was going on. So the summary is:
He has not diagnosed me as yet (he has some ideas but we are just eliminating).

Part of the elimination process is more bloodwork (to think I used to be scared of them!) and then a month from today it is back up to the city for 3 more tests.

That will be an interesting day! We will drive almost an hour up to the city and then I will be getting 2 MRI's. One for my brain and then one for my upper spine/neck. They will be 45 minutes each so that will be about 1 1/2 hours and then I will have a little break, then onto another test which will take 3 hours. That will be an exhausting day! I am not so sure how well I will do stuck for 1 1/2 hours in a tube (have you seen those MRI things???) but I am planning on taking a billion (ok like 2) Selah cd's and hopefully falling asleep listening to hymns.

So after that I will go back and see the neurologist again and hopefully be able to get the results.

I was sitting in the waiting room today after we had seen the doctor with so many thoughts racing through my head when Mom (who had brought along her Bibles/devotional books for the wait) handed me her Daily Light devotional. The verse for this mornings reading included these:

"Behold, the LORD’s hand is not shortened,
That it cannot save;
Nor His ear heavy,
That it cannot hear."
Isaiah 59:1

"Happy is he who has the God of Jacob for his help,
Whose hope is in the LORD his God,"
Psalm 146:5

"And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."
Phillipians 4:19

"Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
So we may boldly say:

“ The LORD is my helper;
I will not fear.
What can man do to me?”"
Hebrews 13:4-5

"The LORD is my strength and my shield;
My heart trusted in Him, and I am helped;
Therefore my heart greatly rejoices,
And with my song I will praise Him."
Psalm 28:7

As I read those verses my eyes got off of myself and my worries and were instantly turned in awe to my God. I mean WOW! This is the God I serve! This God who is my strength and shield, my helper, who promises to NEVER leave or forsake me! I was just completely blown over AGAIN by the fact that He is my Father in Heaven. That He loves me so much He sent His only begotten Son to die for me. That He will never give me anything that I can not bear in life. The fact that even though He doesn't promise that it will always be easy He does promise that He will be with us every step of the way. WOW!

Oh and then it gets better :)

I got home and I was kinda thinking about the fact that I have over a month more before we find out what is going on and that I still feel sick alot of the time. Anywho, I was worrying about just some different stuff and I opened my Bible and the section I was to read today "just happened" (YEAH RIGHT!) to be from Matthew 6:25-34 which in my Bible has this little heading: DO NOT WORRY. WOW!!!!

So I am reading that passage and I got down to the last 2 verses:

"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." (Matthew 6:33-34)

It was just another reminder from my AWESOME God that He will take care of everything. I was also reminded to just continue to strive to live every second of the day for my God and to seek HIM 1st.

How am I doing that? Well, today I was convicted about the way I treat my family. It is so weird how I can take foregranted the people that I love the most and sometimes hurt them through my words and my actions. So I have purposed in my heart this afternoon to strive to season my words with grace and to honor and glorify God in the way that I react to things. I think that it is just another area of surrender that needs to be dealt with...whew!

Oh, I haven't posted some actual pictures in awhile so here are a few from this saturday when I was helping the girls get ready for the ball:





Have a
wonderful day
and stay strong
in Jesus :)
He is so worthy of our
praise and
our honor and
glory.
WE SERVE AN AWESOME GOD!

Sorry it has been so long!

Hey all :)
I apologize for how long it has been since I have last updated. It has been an interesting past few days.

1st of all the Lord has once again been doing alot of pruning. It is so funny how you think that you are finally starting to get it and then all the sudden the Lord opens your eyes and you realize that you have so many things that you still need to surrender to the Lord and that you really have no clue! I don't know if anyone else has days like that...

Physically I have been doing better/worse.

Translation: My foot is doing like 75% better! I think that it has been since the walking cast came off and also the physical therapy has been helping alot and I have only gone once since I got my new "prescription" for it! I am going through desensitization of the nerves. I do not know what that means but it is working :)
So I have been praising the Lord for that!

The kinda worse part is that fact that my headaches and blurry vision have been getting worse and worse. This morning in church I could barely stand it and ended up going straight home and taking a 4 hour nap. That helped a whole lot :)

Tonight we (Pastor Mike, Jen, Danny, Heather, Scott, Jac, Andrew, Laura and I) went and visited some friends at a church about 45 minutes away. That was a ton of fun and definately an encouragement for all of us :)

Oh! AND I HAVE PICTURES FOR YOU ALL :)

Last night Abby, Jac and Laura went to a CAP Ball and I got the honor of doing their hair and Make-up. It took 4 hours but was soooo worth it! They looked like princess's :)

So check them out:

Getting ready for the CAP Ball 2009 Part 1

Getting ready for the CAP BAll 2009 Part 2

God is so faithful and so good :) I have so much more to tell ya'll but for now I need to go to bed!

Sleep sound in Jesus everyone :)

Blessings and Good Night!

Where do I start?

Hey all!
Wow, today was a...very hard day yet, good at the same time. As many of you know I went to the foot specialist today. Let's start with the good news 1st:

~There is really nothing wrong with me "mechanically". Translation: My bone is healing well so I AM OUT OF THE WALKING CAST!!!!! YESSSSS!!!!

Ok onto the bad news:

~Because my bone is healing fine there is the doctor said that it is definately nerve damage. And it is on both feet (HAH that is bad) so he said it needs to get checked out by a neurologist ASAP.

~My headaches, blurry vision, dizzyness and numbness are getting worse by the day. I actually almost passed out in the doctors office today. I was so sick...and in so much pain!

~I am going to see a neurologist on the 10th. Hopefully he can figure out what is going on!

Anywho, to sum up: I am w/o the walking cast BUT still in a lot of pain/discomfort. You know what though...I For all the pain and the tears and the uncertainties GOD HAS BEEN SO FAITHFUL AND TAUGHT ME SOOO MUCH! You know I have been thinking about it lately and it has been over 4 months of my life since this all really started...but I honestly would not take back these 4 months or change them in any way. Heh, it seems so funny to be saying that, but really, God has taught me so much! And honestly, I am a completely different person now then I was back when things where "normal" 4 months ago. I really believe that He uses triels and hard times to refine us into the person HE wants us to be. I feel as though I have made that transition into womanhood. God is so FAITHFUL. And you know why I can say that? Because He has proven Himself to be faithful countless times during this season of uncertainty in my life. WE SERVE AN AWESOME GOD!

So yeah, please pray that I will be able to get through this pain until the 10th and that they would be able to diagnose me...and most of all that I would honor and glorify my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!

Night all :)

Well it can only get better from here on out (hopefully!)

Hey all!
SO guess where I headed off to today for the 1st time in a month? Well as the picture suggests I went to work today. It was absolutely wonderful seeing everyone which was the good thing :) The bad thing was that I got the worst headache...like a 4 hour one! I think it was just getting back...I was trying to do all the things I had done before and I realized I really just didn't have the strength. So yeah, that was kinda rough. I still feel really really sick. But you know what it was the 1st time back and I haven't really had to be really active active for a month so it will get better from here :)

I am so happy to know what is actually wrong with my foot. God is so gracious and merciful. I am seeing the bone specialist in the city on Monday so hopefully by next month I will be walking without the cast :)

Please pray:

That my headaches and blurriness of vision will get better. It seems as though over time they just keep getting worse. I am so ready to know what is going on so it can be fixed. You know what though...God has a reason and a purpose for all this. If "only" to showcase His power and glory! :) He is so worthy of honor and glory and praise! Bless His HOLY name :)

We are headed off to the revolve tour tomorrow. THAT WILL BE SO MUCH FUN!!!!!! So I will talk to you later :)

Blessings and Good Night :)

MRI Results

Hey all :)
So I got my MRI results and here they are:

Due to way overdoing it the 1st time that I got out of my cast I ended up breaking a small bone that bears all my weight in my right foot. The reason they did not catch it was because it is so small that it didn't show up in the other x-rays.

So, in order for it to heal I am still wearing my walking cast but only when I go out or to work. I have also been ordered to not do anything really strenuous (hiking, running, treadmills) until it heals.

The bone I broke also accounts for the numbness in my right foot SO that is one less thing to worry about :)

Lord willing things will start to get better :) And while I do have another broken bone I am so so so so so so grateful to God that we know what is wrong and can take the steps to make it better :)

Please pray:

-That I would be able to rest and not do anything stupid :-p
-I am going to the neurologist for the headaches and the blurry vision because it is not getting better so we shall see what happens with that.

Oh my word! God is so good and faithful and amazing :) Yes my healing time when this all ends will probably end up being 5 months but that is ok with me :) God is faithful! God is GOOD! :) :) :)

Blessings to you all :)

What an interesting last few days :)

Hey all you guys out there :)
1st of all I wanted to thank you all so very much for your prayers for me this past week well almost two.
2nd of all I have so much to catch you all up on!
Ok, so I don't know if you knew this BUT my Uncle Donny has been visiting from CO for the past week and a half. SO, he has been sleeping in Jen's room and she has been sleeping on the couch. I have a double bed but she absolutely refused to sleep with me in it. Now, I suppose she did have valid excuses...Like that fact that the morning of the last time she slept in my room I woke up in that state of just perfect peacefulness/warmth/contentment. THe problem was that Jen did not fare so well. In fact, I looked around and she was not in bed but she was curled up in a fetal position beside the bed
covered with her robe. I guess I had kicked her out of the bed during the night...needless to say she hasn't wanted to sleep in my room since. UNTIL LAST NIGHT!!!! I was so happy for a chance to prove myself to her. Course when she came barreling in with a list of rules and regulations longer then my arm. THey included that fact that we were sleeping on OPPOSITE ends of the bed, were to have a barrier between us and I was on NO uncertain terms to cross over onto her side! Well...I won...and SHE MOVED MORE THAN ME IN HER SLEEP!!!!! Anywho :)

Why are we sleeping on a mattress in the middle of my floor you ask and is my room in shambles...well...my bed is broken. SO things are kind of everywhere :) Anywho, so the day it broke I came into my room and found my cat perched on top of well...the pic explains it all. AND SHE CLIMBED BY HERSELF!!! Weirdness!

So onto more serious things:
I went to the eye doctor yesterday for an appointment. In addition to all that has been going on, I have been having severe headaches and severe blurriness of my vision. THe problem was it was getting more and more worse/frequent. So I went to the doctor thinking that I needed a new prescription. I ended up going through a battery of tests (one especially was lengthy and painful) and by the end of it was so ready to just know what was wrong and what could be done to fix it. On the upside I got my eyes dilated and actually took a picture of them when I got home and couldn't believe how cooled they looked! It was like having black eyes! So that is what the picture is for :) Anywho so then, I was told by my doctor that my eyes were completely healthy and fine and whatever was causing the symptoms was not eye related. That was like the...oh man I have lost count...time that I had been told by someone (in a nutshell): "Something is wrong with you but we don't know what it is or what is causing it."

That was really really really tough. However, I have purposed in my heart that no matter what happens I will praise the Lord for it and strive to ,through it all, bring honor and glory to HIS name. So now I am going to see a neurologist. I had my MRI today and that was...loud! It was good though. It made for a hard rest of the day health wise but I ended up talking to a great friend and she really encourage me :)

And now I am off to bed :) If I could think of one thing to leave with ya'll it is this: Our God (if indeed you are in Christ Jesus) is INDESCRIBABLE!!!! HE IS SO WORTHY OF OUR PRAISE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN OUR LIFE! HE IS WORTHY!!! Have you praised Him for His...AWESOMENESS lately?

Just something to think about :)
Blessings to you all!
Good Night :)

Some life changing decisions...literally!

When I say life changing...I mean it! This week as most of you know has been a very difficuly one. It has been filled with lots of ups and downs, stress, unknowns, worries and ultimately striving to just keep my eyes upon my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. This past week I felt as though my life had been turned upsidedown but through it all I KNEW that God was in control!
Well, through a series of events that were all God orchestrated, it was brought to my attention that probably 99% of my health issues (besides my foot) was because of my diet. So for the past 3 days I have been on basically a gluten free diet-fruits, veggies, meat and no preservatives. I have been wrecking my body and am starting to think that the reason my foot did not heal was because I had NO and let me stress NO protein in my body. So we shall see what the Lord will do :)
GOD IS SO GOOD!!!!
I was washing the dishes while listening to Selah today and realized I haven't been that at peace/content/not stressed in a long time. God is so good! I feel so much better and while
it is really hard to get off sugar it is so worth it! I am on my
3rd day and we shall see what happens :)
So last night some wonderful friends of mine came to the door at 11pm and gave me flowers and a card. It was an encouragement straight from the Lord! I had had a difficult evening and WOW it was so neat to see them. I love how the Lord sends people along at just the right time :)Yes, I was that pale (It was like almost 12am give me a break!) and yes I am wearing blinding orange with blue, white, and red...anywho I was very happy :) Anywho, that is what the pictures are about.
I am off to bed. Good night all :)

So much...

These past few days have been an absolute roller coaster ride. But I just wanted to share with you a really neat song that everyone knows but I think do not think about it really or at least I did not until this past Sunday night during singing. Anywho just take the time to ponder these words:

"He is able, more than able
to accomplish what concerns me today.
He is able, more than able
to handle anything that comes my way.
He is able, more than able
to do much more than I could ever dream,
He is able, more than able,
to make me what He wants me to be."

Our God is ABLE! Nothing is impossible with Him! How awesome is that? I mean just think about it-if you are saved and have surrendered your life 110% to Christ this song is describing your FATHER. I ended up grabbing a pen and writing it in the flyleaf of my Bible...God is so good and so faithful.

So I am really tired and am going to cut this short but I did want to say that the end is hopefully in sight. As of today I started a completely gluten-free diet. Some of my symptoms are starting to look like I may be allergic to wheat and those kind of foods so we shall see what happens :)

I am off! Have a very blessed night :)

As most of you know about 3 months ago I broke my foot coming off my horse and long story short I ended up being in my walking cast for about a month and 1/2 cause I did too much too soon.
The problem was that I wasn't getting better...my pain was starting to be worse and I was losing all my mobility and muscle mass. So I went to the doctor yesterday expecting to get my walking cast off and he said
A) that it should never have taken this long to heal
B) that my shooting pain and numbness (which started a few weeks ago) was definately something more serious.
So he ordered an MRI for this friday and said I needed to go and see some specialists.
So I get home today and I had been having headaches/blurred vision for a while and today it got really really bad. I had a headache that felt like it was going to split my head and then my entire right side went numb. I took 2 tylonal and 2 ibuprofen together and it still didn't help so I went to the ER (a nurse friend of ours told us too) where I learned (among other things) that i am not pregnant (hah could have told them that one :-p) and that I was a unique case, they didn't know what to do with me and they are sending me to at least 2 specialists plus my MRI.
Phew...it is even longer in person :-p

It was definately a very draining day. I had to have an EKG, CAT Scan, Chest x-rays, blood work and other things taken. After all that I was ready to know what was wrong with me but...yeah they still don't know. So these next 2 weeks will prove alot.

It was hard b/c I did not know what was going on and the doctor tossed out some scary sounding things (MS and Lymes disease being 2 of the choices) but he said that basically what they were doing just now was getting options out of the way. So MRI is friday and specialist are just with in the next 2 weeks. :)SO, I would still appreciate prayer! Oh yeah, just random FYI: my walking cast is still on which is kinda sad! It has been a month and a half! I am forgetting what it is like to wear two shoes :-p Anywho!

Yesterday I was just crying out before the Lord and He gave me this verse:
"Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
Isiah 41:10

I serve an AWESOME GOD! Just in case ya'll didn't know that :) He has been teaching me so much about having faith in Him and trusting Him no matter what the road looks like ahead. He is so worthy of all the Honor and Glory we can give Him!

These are some pics that I took on my cell phone yesterday in the ER. And yes I look ginormous cause I was in this sack of a hospital gown and yes I was as exhausted as I look! So be kind in your thoughts :-p

My ER Visit

Well that is it for now :)
I am going to go eat some pizza and spend some time with the Lord. Blessings to you all and thanks so much again for the prayers!