A Success.

The past few months of my life have been some of the happiest I have ever known.

God saw fit for me to enter into a courtship relationship with a young man who loves the Lord fervently and passionately desires to serve Him with his life.

However, this past Sunday, after over three months of courtship, Kelly and I decided to break off our courtship. It was truly one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do in my life BUT I know that we made the right decision. Our courtship was a success! Neither of us have any regrets and I know that God has a purpose that is so much bigger than either of us.

Does this mean that it still doesn't hurt? Uh. NO! BUT, I have realized something:
I am not devastated.
The reason why is because Kelly did not complete me.
Jesus Christ completes me.
Because Jesus Christ completes me.
I am hurt.
But not devastated.
I KNOW that I can do all things through CHRIST Who strengthens me!
I KNOW that both Kelly and I will be able to find strength BECAUSE the JOY of the LORD is our STRENGTH.
I KNOW that in Christ,not only do I have a future, but HOPE for the future (Jeremiah 29:11).
I KNOW that I can have the freedom to move on.
I am so THANKFUL we have NO REGRETS about our courtship.

What is the purpose of courtship?
Well, to discover if the person is the one God would have you to marry.
In our case, the answer was no.
AND THAT IS OK.

I learned so much these past few months.
About others.
About myself.
About my Savior.
I will ALWAYS be eternally grateful that the Lord brought Kelly into my life!

Our courtship, although it is now ended, was a SUCCESS.

Now, I am finding the freedom to dream again.

One thing that is so important to remember as a "single person" is that only when you find your completion is Christ is when you will be fulfilled.

So many times people think that when they get a boyfriend/girlfriend or get married that is when true happiness BEGINS.

That is so wrong.

Our happiness, contentment and satisfaction in life CAN NOT be dependent on a PERSON or on CIRCUMSTANCES.

Only when we are completely satisfied with JESUS CHRIST can we truly begin to LIVE.

That is what I have realized the past week.

I mean, I knew that only Christ can complete me and in Him is the only way to be truly content and satisfied.

Let me tell you.

This week that was tested.

I think that the Lord wanted to know if I really believed what I had been teaching my girls in my Friday night Bible studies.

I had to CHOOSE.

I CHOSE Jesus.

And let me tell you! Ever since that decision...I have never known such JOY.

Does that mean that I am not sad?

No.

Does that mean that I am sometimes fearful of an unknown future.

Yes.

BUT, in the midst of it all, THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH!

He is so good!

Truly, He NEVER gives us more than we can bear.

And this past week when I got to points were I thought that there could not possibly be anymore hope as I looked to JESUS...He showed me just how much HOPE there really is!

HOPE that can only be found in HIM.

And that is why...I am beginning to heal.

And will continue to heal.

And by God's grace will continue to move forward.

In HIS strength.

I have so much more to say.

So many lessons and thoughts to share.

But I think that that is going to have to wait for another post!

Thank you so much for all your prayers!

No matter what happens in life...I am praying that my Precious Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will be honored and glorified.

HE IS WORTHY!